I have heard so many tales from perfectionists, unable to let minor details go and obsessing over small errors until late in the night. I never imagined that I was one of them. I don’t get things done perfectly. I don’t arrange and rearrange until everything is just so. I don’t spend hours searching for the perfect shade of lemon yellow to paint my kitchen. I see a flaw and let it go. I never imagined that I was a perfectionist until I was I am not your typical perfectionist who must have each detail of a project exactly right before it is considered complete. My perfectionism does not push me forward to complete incredible feats and achieve my greatest dreams. No, my perfectionism paralyzes me. If I think I may be unable to obtain perfection, I am completely unable to perform at all. This affects even the simplest chores in my life, “Don’t have the time of energy for a full workout, why bother at all? Don’t think that you can achieve that goal, don’t even try!” For me, fear of failure, in the past, has spurred me into inaction.
I am working towards being comfortable aiming to achieve things- fear of failure be damned. While working on my vision and goals worksheet (downloaded from Lululemon’s website here.) I have spent a lot of time thinking about how to set the right goals, how to make sure my goals are achievable and working really hard to not be scared of setting a goal which I might not meet.
I read a blog post by Lululemon Leadership Trainer, Matt, who explained how he uses fear to motivate himself to achieve his goals. To him, setting goals meant that he was doing something remarkable. With his encouragement to embrace the possibility of failure and use it to succeed, I am creating goals for myself and making use of my fear of failure. Without setting the goals, I would never fail at anything but I would also never accomplish anything. As a result, I am spending this year thinking about goals and giving myself the opportunity to set and re-set goals using the Lululemon worksheet. The goal, for now, is to create meaningful goals that I can start working towards.
On a side note, I started writing this post weeks ago and hadn’t finished it or posted it because I felt that it wasn’t perfect. I find this hilarious and indicative of my long journey ahead towards being comfortable with not being perfect.